afraid to lose my mom..
August 9, 2008 – 10:02 pmMy Mom has been displeased for 9 eld and i am 15 now, i hit seen her look/be so weak, i would meet up every period and pray to God to permit her attain it finished and meet with me.
has ever prefabricated a bounteous comeback with her disease and got a lowercase taste better.
now she is rattling displeased again a pair nights past and tonight and i can`t defence to wager her aforementioned this, it kills me exclusive that i can`t support her. I utilised to think/say when i was a lowercase banter and i ease feature the aforementioned abstract to this day.. i poverty to expire before her. It`s true.
has been the Mayo Clinic in Rochester, MN and they don`t hit some communication to support her.
disease shuts downbound every the meat until she is departed and i would provide her some of my meat if it meant she could live, i would provide my chronicle for her. I don`t intend along with my Dad likewise substantially and my brother is feat to college and agitated discover soon. So if my Mom was absent it would meet be me and my Dad and that would not be good, drive we fisticuffs alot. I am rattling near to my Mom and she is aforementioned my prizewinning friend. I am rattling afeard to retrograde her, i can`t and don`t poverty to envisage chronicle without her. Everytime i wager her and essay to speech to her, i modify up breaking downbound glaring in my shack (like now) and modify up perception to penalization and glaring myself to sleep, or staying up every period checking on her. I prefabricated a prospect to her when i was 4 and i am observed to ready that promise, modify if she goes before i crapper attain it, i module ease attain it and it is sacred to her. (the prospect is personal.) I move Highschool on weekday and she is so displeased correct now, i can`t centre on anything else. I requirement something/someone to exhibit me she is feat to be ok, but every i crapper do is verify her i fuck her and pray for things to intend better. Anything you guys hit to feature most losing a parent or experience with a displeased parent would be adjuvant to me.
One Response to “afraid to lose my mom..”
I really pray for you and your mother, I'm crying now just reading this. I've lost friends but never a parent, It would have to be the hardest thing in the world. I really just don't know what to say other than that I will pray for you because I know that what your feeling is horrible and nothing will take that feeling away. I'm just so sorry, I truely and deeply am. I hope that everything will be okay.
remember when you were a child and she was well and all the fun you have together, let her tell you stories and just take care of her and tell her you love her alot.
mainly just pray, thats the best thing you can do.
really love your mother and Jesus knows that and is watching you, he will help you.
of wishes.
By 90s chick on Aug 9, 2008